Wednesday, November 24, 2010

When life gives you lemons...

Sometimes my fellow ppl... you face things that you think you will never overcome. But I am here to tell you that trouble don't last always! (That is all I really have to say) It is just that keep your head up and keep the Faith!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Life and Its stuggles...

Of late it has become really clear to me that there will always be repercussions for your actions... something you do today might not show up tomorrow but it might show up some time later.

Somethings that happen in other ppls life make me not want to live in a worldly mind...or in better words it turns me away from was is so full of sin and turns me towards what is everlasting.

YOUNG PEOPLE... i cannot stress enough... do not do anything that would bring you shame... if it has to be private and no one else can know or you don't want anyone to find out then you should not be doing it...

It just hurts my heart these days when i see young ppl in situations that could have been avoided, if they had only been more careful and not followed what the world tells you.

Why can't we as teenagers just be teens and not try to grow up so fast? why can't we be our age? man... it really make me sad.

Maybe for some of you the events in life might be a blessing... in a sense that you will grow up and wake up! Some of you will be forced to wake up and others will get the oppertunity to start over...

I don't even know.... all I can say is WAKE UP! PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!

I can't name this...

to all the mothers and fathers out there.... if you child tells you that they are not happy at home, what would be the normal response? would one ask why (unprompted) or start listing the places one could go?

to all the mothers and fathers out there... is it not your job to love and nurture your kids or put them down?
make them feel like there is no one left in there corner?

to all the new mothers and fathers out there... the promise you made your child when they could not understand... will you still keep it when they are 19?

to the parents that have been at it for a while... do you resent your child? do they resent you? do you make life a living hell?

to anyone that identifies with this.... do you feel like somone has it out for you?

all of this floods to me...cuz on earth i got no emotional help(from the ones that should have my back)... OH BUT I HAVE MY HELP! this is the one time that i can honestly say that what i wanna do for the next two years is very clear to me... Thank you Lord i am still alive and what was the worst so far is behind me. sometime a chick just gotta fly....

Today I cried for you...

Of late I have been in the Christmas mood so that is all that is playin in my car....I'll Be Home For Christmas came on and so did the waterworks.

"Christmas Eve will find you, where the love light gleams, I'll be home for Christmas, If only in my dreams" that line it was all it took...
Flashback to Christmas Eve 2008...

When I got a call from my dad somehow I never expected to EVER come. My auntie(antie) Seita had passed...

Feel guilty cuz it is easy to forget...(hard for me to even go on right now cuz I am over here crying my eyes out)
Loved her so much... so many things I learned from her and so many good times... and now they are all memories.(I am so glad i got to see her twice before then. How I felt will always stay with me...)

That Christmas of 2008 She was home for Christmas. That got me thinking... where is your home? Where is your final resting place?

From Sunday death has been on my mind...It is a part of life and no one person can run from it. Sad but true.

So often we make plans for tomorrow and tomorrow is not promised.

All I know is that Christmas Eve, Christmas, can find Alseita Aldridge in my heart...Where the love light gleams

I have no gift to bring, thats fit to give our King (Little Drummer Boy)

 Ok i am taking the Chirstmas thing a little too far now i guess but i had ANOTHER moment listening to Little Drummer Boy! Have you really listened to the words?!
 "Little Baby..I am a poor boy too... I have no gift to bring...Thats fit to give our King..."

 Whaaaaat?! I just had to stop it am play it again!

(felt bad that he felt this way... but often we walk around saying the same thing)

Then i thought... Are there times when you feel like the work you do for the Lord will never be enough?
What talent has he blessedyou with? Do you use it to honor him?

"Mary nodded...Ox and lamb kept time...I played my drum for him...I played my best for him...Then he smiled at me..." 

Just last week i was SO ready to give up and change my major and that very same day i was reminded what i was there for...
Do you get caugt up? Forget what the struggle is all for?

Just remember that you were sent here for a reason... everyone's mission is different

As long as you "play for him", "play your best for him"... He will smile upon you :) :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Church Bells

everyday when i get here i hear police sirens and ambulances and after a while i got use to them...then there was one day when i realized that church bells ring out over this campus too... idk where the church is and that does not matter... at those moments when the bells ring it is still and quiet... that is all that matters... everything stops and i can hear nothing else but the bells. today a song played... i did not know it but i hummed along anyway cuz i guess i did down in my heart 

the church bells are so much louder and much more haunting than the constant sounds of trouble that circle this campus everyday. when i hear the sirens i feel nothing but when the first church bell rings i am aware.

could it be that the church bells are a greater warning?
Just for me? or for all? are there some that do not hear?

-just something to think about...